I'm Such A Dummy..

Well, I'm sure some of you are denying this, but give me a chance to prove it to you.. lol

I honestly don't know why, but I just realized that somewhere I started thinking I could lose weight with just a change of eating.. HAHA!!  I just brought you over to the "I'm a dummy" side, didn't I?! 

I should honestly know better.. I read blogs, I've looked online at stuff, and I know that this thinking is really WRONG..

As I say this, I'm wondering how I'm going to rectify this.. Oh yeah, by starting off fresh tomorrow morning with W1D1 of Brad Gansberg's 5k in 100 days class.. I'm a little behind (I was gonna start tonight, but I picked up a last minute shift), but I will get my 3 days in.. :)

As much as I miss the gym, I honestly miss the treadmill the most.. I don't really miss the classes (as fun as they can be sometimes), or the music (I like my own music).. I miss getting into my own little world and just getting things done.. Is it sad that the only place I like to sweat is at the gym?  I feel like it's called for there.. hehe

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On a lighter note, I went to do my paperwork for my new job.. Found out I have to wait almost 6 months to get my medical and dental insurance.. which is okay, I guess.. HOWEVER, I only have to wait til December 1st to get my vision insurance.. Sadly, this is pretty important to me.. I happened to find two contacts that were floating around in my MULTIPLE contact cases (am I the only one who has like a dozen cases??).. so I can see clearly again now.. YAY!!  But I am planning to make appointments at all sorts of places for the appropriate doctors/dentists..

Now, I have an opinion question.. My medical insurance has two plans, one WITH an HSA account (and $1250 deductible) and one without an HSA account (and $750 deductible).. The hospital will deposit $500 into the HSA account (to make the difference between the plans), but the non-HSA one has co-pays and the other doesn't.. Any ideas of which one I should go for?  I'm leaning towards the HSA account, bc I've had one before, and I didn't have any problems (plus, I could always afford the visits since I was putting money into the account).. Let me know your opinion.. :)

Seriously?!

Out of all the things I was looking forward to today, having a panic attack WAS NOT one of them.. I'm seriously thinking I am going to become a recluse on accident.. I can't wait to find out on Monday how long I have to wait to get medical insurance.. As soon as my ass is out of that building, I will be calling my doctor to get an appointment for meds and an appointment with a therapist.. This shit is going to end, and soon!!  I cannot believe that I am having this crap come up again..

It's always with something seriously important.. which is probably why it happens.. I've been thinking about this reception for almost a week.. ugh!  That is all.. I'm off to go take a nap.. these things wear me out..

Where HAVE I Been?

btw, in my head, the title has been yelled by Mrs. Weasley (from Harry Potter).. lol.. it's been one of those kinds of weeks where I just can't stop laughing right now..

Seriously though, where in the world did I go?!  11 days since my last post?!?!?!?!  WOW!  I'm thinking that's a personal record, which sucks bc this isn't a good record to have.. I loved blogging at one point..  I'm sure if you've followed me for a while, you've gotten sick of my posts sometimes (I think a couple days I've posted 3 times).. But now, my posts barely come once a week.. Sadly, I miss the pictures I used to post, as stupid as it might seem.. My digital camera broke a while ago, and my dad took his back about 6 months ago.. :(

Well, I'm determined to bring back more pics to my posts (hence the pic above.. lol).. I can't believe I haven't posted in so long.. Just to be brief, here's a couple little things that have happened over the past 11 days..

** Last Friday's weigh in was 242.6 lbs (my body likes those .6 lbs, doesn't it?!), which is down 1 lb..
** I tried to weigh on Wednesday, only to find that my scale has finally bit the dust.. So I have to buy another one before I can weigh in again..
** This past 7 days have been weird.. Saturday was a free-for-all, food-wise, but I got back on track Sunday and Monday, but Tuesday started a slow free-for-all again.. My mom brought in CHOCOLATE FUDGE!!  I can't resist (yet) the smell of chocolate fudge.. or the taste.. lol

Now a big thing that happened this past week!?  I GOT THE JOB!!  Now, if you follow me on Twitter, you already know this.. If you don't follow me on Twitter, why don't you?!  lol.. In case you are interested, click on the twitter button.. :)

But back to the main subject: I got a call on the 16th from the HR manager telling me I got the job.. she asked if it was a good time to go over some stuff as I was flushing the toilet!!  lol.. don't judge, you know you answer calls on the toilet too.. but I go in on Monday to finish all the paperwork, get drug tested, and get some shots.. My first day is October 10th.. I'm so excited!  It's only part time, but it has HEALTH INSURANCE!!  I seriously am restraining myself from making appointments until Monday, when I'll remember to ask how long the waiting period is.. lol

Now, onto the healthy part of my blog... I plan to re-start the Induction on Monday.. I would start today, but I have a wedding reception to go to, and I figure one more day ain't gonna hurt me (I know, stupid, but I really don't wanna watch what I eat with the place it's at)..

Another Twitter reference for ya.. I'm enrolled in Brad Gansberg's 5kin100days program.. it starts on Monday also.. If you are interested in doing it, go to bradgansberg.com and check out the details..  I'm excited to get back into running, especially outside.. This weather is wonderful, if only the rain would go away..

Well, that's all for now.. sorry if I rambled.. Now, COMMENT AWAY!! lol

Weekend Update..

Well, it may be Tuesday, but I still wanted to share what I learned over the weekend..

I've said it before, that this time is different.. and this is in regards to that being more true every day.. :)  I have had 2 "cheat" days (where I eat whatever I want within a 1 hour period, within reason) since starting this newest leg of my journey.. and both times I've found them to be not worth it.. I honestly can't say what is different this time.. Yes, I have a cruise to go to (hopefully) in June.. Yes, I plan to wear bikinis on said cruise.. But seriously, I've said stuff before and it's never motivated me this way..

But weekend before last, I ate home-cooked chicken tenders and fries.. I was unprepared to "cheat" but it was, what I thought was, a good lunch.. I was sorely disappointed.. The fries were weird (in my opinion) and the chicken tenders were okay.. Definitely not worth it..  This past Friday, I stopped in to McDonald's for a fast, easy lunch.. I got the Daily Double (yay, it's back!!), medium fry, and 3 chocolate chip cookies.. The fries were gross and I tossed the bottom part of the bun of my burger away (I would have tossed both parts but the mayo and lettuce were on the top one)..  the cookies were worth it though.. yumm!!!!

Basically, I've learned over the weekend that I really won't WANT to eat like I used to.. I only grabbed McDonald's bc I made the mistake of driving without snacks around.. I need to have stuff available to snack on, and will make sure to have them from now on.. :)

Weigh In's..

Yes, plural.. I weighed in on Friday, like a good girl.. lol.. and was shocked.. I'd been good with my carbs (not counting them exactly, but staying away from bread regardless) and while I did eat 5 pieces of (gross) sushi, I threw away the other 4 pieces..

Weigh In on 9/9: 246.6 lbs
Loss of 2.2 lbs

But that's a gain from when I weighed in during the week..  But I weighed in this morning, and was pleasantly surprised.. :)

Weigh In on 9/12: 243.6 lbs
Loss of 3.0 lbs from 9/9

WOOHOO!!  Now, I gotta keep going down.. I'll be back later with a weekend recap, bc I've learned a few things during this weekend.. :)

This Time Is Different..

I don't know why, but this time really is different.. I find that I don't care to eat carbs.. I really don't miss bread so much, I don't miss ice cream like I thought I would.. Don't get me wrong, I still have those moments when I'm starving at the store (I know, it doesn't happen too often, but it does happen) where I want to go see my boys Ben & Jerry.. But I resist and walk right on by.. which is getting easier and easier, the skinnier I find myself getting..

Right now, I've not seen any difference in my clothes.. But I've noticed my face is slimmer, and my thighs don't jiggle quite as badly.. lol.. But then again, I've only lost like 13 lbs so far (yeah, I weighed myself again yesterday and I'm down to 243.6 lbs), and since I started out at 257.0 I figure it's gonna take a loss of 20+ lbs before I notice anything getting smaller again.. Yes, I'm taking my being able to wear size 16 as a NSV.. but I want to be able to wear them without worrying about my rolls showing.. ugh, rolls!

I was thinking today during Zumba "I really hope I don't lose my butt or boobs" during my weight loss..  I love my CURVES.. I don't love my ROLLS!  Does that make sense?!  In my mind it does, so I'm going with it.. :)

OH!  I finally put up my September goals!  And 2 out of 4 of them are weight loss related.. and the other 2 are life related.. I'm hoping to get back on my anxiety and ADHD meds.. when the sun goes away, I will stay in bed ALL DAY!!  so I need to nip it in the bud and get my meds going again.. and the other, of course, is the same as last month: FIND A NEW JOB!  lol

Happy Labor Day..

I can't believe before Saturday, I hadn't posted since the past Friday!!  WHAT?!  Wasn't that one of those "things to work on"?!  Yeah, I'm working on it.. lol.. slowly.. Bad thing about Blogger on Android is that I can't do as much personalizing (like centering and paragraphs) as I want.. and since I am not on my computer that often, it's easy to forget about.. :(

I'm hoping that this week will be a good one.. Like that I get a call back from ANY of the applications I've recently put out.. :)  Or that the gym isn't closed tomorrow!! Grr.. I'm off work today and I can't go to the gym.. So disappointed.. But tomorrow is a new day.. And I plan to go as soon as I get back from donating plasma..

Now I hope everyone is enjoying their (hopefully) extended weekend.. Even I had an unintended 3 day weekend.. sadly, I didn't want it to be that long, but whatever.. :)

Unprepared..

So I woke up this morning, threw on my scrubs, pulled my hair back, and went downstairs to fix me my normal weekend breakfast... sausage links.. they aren't prolly the healthiest thing, since they are microwavable, but they are travel-friendly, so I eat them on weekends a lot.. :)

My mom fixed some for me yesterday, bless her heart, and I guess she used the rest of them bc I couldn't find the bag this morning.. I just bought the bag last week, so hopefully they're just buried.. lol.. but instead of going crazy finding them, I just decided to try McDonald's breakfast platter.. NEVER AGAIN!! Their eggs are nasty.. ick! I took two bites of the hashbrown then threw the rest to the birds.. and told myself I can have half of the biscuit since the eggs were gross.. and to make sure I didn't get tempted to eat the whole thing, I threw the bottom half out the window for the birds too.. lmao

I figure that was SO not worth the $4 I spent on it.. lesson learned..

Weekend Post.. and a Weigh in..

All right, let's get this out of the way..

Weight on 09/02: 248.8 lbs
Difference from last week: +3.2 lbs

I know that I am expecting this to go down by next Friday, seeing as I gain around 5lbs when it's that TOM.. I hate it.. I was 3 days early this time.. 3 DAYS! No fair! So, what did I do?? I went and bought water pills for next month.. me and my period need to find a way to cooperate during my weight loss.. I also noticed that first week I was eating veggies like crazy.. sometimes having a salad twice a day.. last week, not so much.. so my goal this week is to get some balance with fruits/veggies.. and to get some knowledge on how many cards are in things.. 

I will be updating my September goals tomorrow, as I forgot about them the last two days, and today I'm working all day.. Sadly, I won't be getting the bike because I still don't have a better job.. The company I'm hoping hires me is VERY slow in their hiring process.. ugh! But I'm still applying at other places too.. Off I go to work.. :) Hope you all are having a great 3 day weekend..