Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Sounds like a good plan, right?! However, since I will be in NYC on the 5th (WOOHOO!!), I will try to find something on Monday the 7th and then go to the regular Saturday meetings after that..
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Right now, my life is one big cluster f@#k.. when i'm not working two job or driving to them, i'm sleeping.. and while this week was planned, it was still difficult..
Honestly, my eating has been CRAPPY.. i've seen McDonald's more than I'd like to admit, and I miss my bed more than I can say.. I'm so scatter-brained that I forgot to get my second TB test read (which means I get to get another one, yay me).. and I haven't been able to scratch out any time to check out the gym the hospital has for us..
Now, I have plans.. and we know how 90% of those turn out.. but i'm trying to fix that, by planning out my plans.. and making back up plans.. My basic plan will go into effect on my 28th birthday, which is Monday, November 7th..
It's kind of perfect, actually.. I can stick with the Monday weigh in, I also have an appointment that morning to get a Wellness check up done, so i'll get to see what i'm starting off with and what I need to work on.. :)
I do know I plan to find a WW meeting that I can go to, not sure where yet, and I will do WW online instead of the normal stuff.. and that's about as far as my plans go FOR NOW.. i'm working on more details of how I want to lose this weight for good..
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Okay, so I'm starting to realize that my house has become a prison, of sorts.. and mom or dad, if you are reading this (which I hope you aren't), it's nothing you all have done..
My grandmother is out of town, so my mom and I are feeding her babies (fur babies, that is) while she's gone.. I walked into her house today and felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.. honestly, it was like the exhaustion I'd been feeling was gone..
I hate that my life is cramped into a small room.. and it's getting worse.. I basically work and sleep anymore.. on the random occasion that I actually get out of my house, it's only with my besties Amanda or Cassie..
I'm hoping that with my new job (and benefits) that I can start my meds, get therapy, and MOVE OUT OF MY PARENTS HOUSE.. lol.. I sadly think that one big reason I'm not succeeding in weight loss is bc it's not my top priority.. right now, my top priority is staying afloat, without totally screwing up what normal life I have..
Sadly, the meds part won't be happening til March, but I will be moving out in January or February.. :)
Monday, October 3, 2011
What are your goals for yourself?? Are they JUST weight related??
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, October 1, 2011
it kills in different ways..
it kills your plans..
it kills your body..
it kills your motivation..
I'm realizing that my brain is not in the right place anymore.. i've gotten lazy, but not physically lazy (no way), but mentally lazy.. This week, i've worked 76 hours.. while i have a very easy just physically, it's mentally draining.. and all i want to do when i (eventually) get home is crash in bed.. and itms only for a small nap..
my question for myself now is why do i need a nap?? seriously, i sleep most nights that i work, and while it's not a wonderful sleep, it's still sleep.. i need to start bringing my gym bag with me everyday.. and get into the habit of going straight there..
my bed needs to stop being my #1 way to de-stress.. I have an able body, I should use it while it's not too late.. and sadly, I forgot to bring it tonight, but seeing as my gym doesn't open til 12 tomorrow, I will go later..