Wednesday, October 30, 2013

We Have Made Progress..

Sorry about the lack of Pinterest posts, but I can't get my pics to come off my phone right now.. I'll fix it and hopefully post tomorrow..

I apologize for being gone for the past 3 days, but I have been having a rough time with A.. BUT we hopefully came to a head today.. After a lot of crying, a lot of talking, and a lot of thinking on both our parts, I think we are on our way to working on our issues..  He is going to find a therapist (hopefully within the next few days), and he even came to the conclusion that he hasn't been helping me with OUR bills.. This made me happy that he realized that by himself bc I've been trying to talk to him about money for a while.. I just hope it sticks..

Now, onto weight stuff!!!  I weighed myself today, and I weighed in at 198.8!!! HOLY CRAP!!  I just hope it stays around that number.. I'd love to show a ONEderland weight to my bariatric team on the 7th..

It's hard to believe that in a little over a week, it will have been a year since my surgery.. And I'm still losing.. Slowly, but it's still coming off.. Which means it's not going back on.. YAY!!  I will also post progress pics prolly Friday.. and of course, my year progress pics on the 8th.. :)

Can you believe it's almost Christmas?!?!?!  Where did this year go???

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Being a Grown Up Sucks..

Well, sometimes it sucks..

I wish I could grow money.. I wish I could win the lottery (but not waste $$$ playing it, of course).. I wish I could just live like they do in the movies..

Well, cupcake, you can't!!

Being with a BP makes life interesting.. and not always in a good way.. We have been together almost 9 months, living together for 4, and I have still yet to learn how to communicate with him properly..  I worry about making him mad, which happens 8 times out of 10..  and then I get sad, or mad, or both..  I admit, until a couple days ago, I really hadn't done much research into how to live with a BP.. 

A week ago, I finally told A that I wasn't happy anymore.. I hated that I wasn't happy anymore, but I didn't want to fake it.. I hate that he's so impulsive when it comes to certain things (a BP trait?  not sure yet), like money.. Money is a big issue with me, as I'm sure you've learned over my time here.. I want to save for our future (and our WEDDING!!) but he wants to spend it all now..  But he said that he would "fix it", that WE would fix it..

I don't know how true that is.. I am looking into therapists, trying to figure out what kind of therapy he needs, and if we can do this together, or if he needs his own therapist.. Basically, our communication sucks..  I haven't been in any other long term relationship (last relationship lasted 6 months), so I don't know if this is normal, or what to do..

Any advice???  I'd appreciate anything you can give me..

Oh yeah, and tomorrow's entry is all about my Pinterest tries!!  :)

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I Am A Bad Blogger..

There.. I've said it.. Or rather typed it..

I am a bad blogger..

I feel horrible that I haven't blogged in almost 3 months.. Seriously, so much has happened in the past three months, and I've wanted to blog so much, but it's always when I am not anywhere near my computer (and I HATE the Blogger app)..

I know I want to make this blog so much more than it is now.. I like reading comments (and miss them terribly), I like writing blog entries, and I have several blog post ideas floating in my head (and in my camera)..

So, my goal in the next two days (I'm off work.. YAY!!), I plan to update everyone and hopefully get started on making this blog what I want it to be.. So, let's get started, shall we..


I have "settled" around the 201-202 lb.. I have been there for about 3 months, which is frustrating bc I'm SO CLOSE to ONEderland.. I even saw 198 at one point, but it wasn't a true weight, I guess bc I was back to 201 the next day.. *shrug*

I won a free 6 month membership to a gym in the same city I work in, but I have yet to use it bc after working 12 hours and getting off at midnight the last thing I want to do is workout.. And then there is the whole "comfort zone" of a relationship, right??


Me and A are still together.. and we are living together.. and we got engaged last month.. And while we have our problems (his bi-polar disorder and my "independent issues"), we are trying to work through it..  I have struggled with not wanting to give up on it all recently.. But I am hoping that once we work on our issues TOGETHER, we will be stronger than ever..  It's possible, right?!?!?


Thanks to moving, several times, and other financial hiccups, I am just starting to save money again..  And with my somewhat impulsive fiance, this is gonna be an uphill battle for him I think.. But I'm hoping since I am doing our finances (starting a budget this paycheck), it will be so much easier..  We'll see if it actually works, bc this is one of my "buttons".. I hate being broke, and we've been broke for a while, but hopefully that will change..

So, for tonight (or techincally today), that is it.. This blog will start to be about a lot of different things.. Bi-Polar disorder, ADHD, couponing, ways to save money, food, Pinterest, and a lot more.. Basically my daily life, in a nut shell.. So please stay tuned, as I plan to stay around this time.. lol