Exhausted..

Today has been an emotionally exhausting day.. Why?! Bc my brother, sister-in-law and niece were packing up their home and getting ready to leave at 1am tonight..

I had not realized it was already the 13th.. I got word that my clients for today had declined baths, I was happy to be off bc it meant that I got to go see my niece before they were leaving.. And now I'm glad I did..

I spent about 4 hours over there helping my SIL and brother pack and clean as much as I could.. And then around 2:30, I had to leave to get ready for work.. BRING ON THE TEARS!!

I only cried a bit.. Bc it will hit me in a couple days.. That's how I am, when anything bad happens, I always have an emotional delay of sorts.. So I'll prolly have a break down on Wednesday.. Lol

But I am feeling exhausted.. I hate to see them go, even if I get a house to myself in return.. I wish they could stay here in Indiana.. Instead, I guess I'll be taking a bunch of trips to Virginia.. :)

My mom got to watch my niece for a while.. Here are some of their 'self portraits'..

Everyone's Moving On..

Well, this is prolly a record for me anymore.. twice in two days?!  Wow!!  lol.. but I've got a lot going on, and I wanna talk about it..

Over the past couple months, my family has been coming to terms with something HUGE.. On June 1st, my brother officially made it through Drill Sergeant school.. I am so proud of him, but seeing as there aren't many Army bases in Indiana, he had to make the decision on where to move.. His choices were some town in Arkansas or Arlington, Virginia.. We have history (and two grandfather's buried) in Arlington, so he chose Virginia..

He has to report to base on the 15th of this month.. and it's been a figment of our imagination until this past week.. They are packing up their lives, their memories, our Layla, and moving to Arlington.. :(  My mom is getting sadder and sadder, thinking of not having Layla 2 miles down the road.. We are all happy for them.. but it will be weird not having them around..

To make it even weirder, my parents are moving into my brother and SIL's house..  This makes me very excited (as long as I don't think about the fact that my brother, SIL and Layla are leaving for this to happen), because I AM STAYING IN OUR HOUSE!!  I will have a whole house to myself, hopefully by the time my surgery is happening.. lol

They are gonna take their time moving, which is understandable.. but I can't help wanting them to just GTFO.. ;)  I've been living with them for almost 5 years.. It'll be weird being on my own again, but I'm looking forward to it..  I'm looking forward to having a craft room (yes, I already have the rooms planned out), and to walking around partially dressed without worrying about flashing my dad (EWWW!)..

So things are getting kinda crazy around here.. and they aren't looking like their gonna stop anytime soon..

It's Been Scheduled!!

Well, today has been an eventful day.. Why?!

Because I had my Pre-Op appointment with my surgeon, Dr. Cooper..  He's kinda funny, and he's got this mustache that goes on FOREVER!  But after going over my health history and making sure I was certain I wanted a Vertical Sleeve, he felt my belly a little and then we went to the front to talk about appointment times..

Now, while my appointment is based upon the assumption that it will take less than 4 weeks to get my insurance to approve it, I've been told that my insurance takes less than 2 weeks to usually get it approved.. Less if you bug them (which we all know I will)..  So, as of right now, my last appointment before surgery is October 1st, and then they'll put the paperwork into my insurance company.. and my surgery is scheduled for October 31st!!

Yep, I will be having surgery on Halloween!  My aunt asked me if I plan on dressing up.. lol.. maybe I'll bring wings to wear with my custom-made hospital gown.. Oh, yeah.. I plan to start making my own hospital gown bc those ones in the hospital are freaking UGLY!!  But thankfully I'll only (supposedly) be in the hospital the day of surgery and the next day.. :)

Oh, and did I mention that my surgery is exactly a week before my 29th birthday?!  Yep, so I will be on a strictly liquid diet for my birthday.. and I'm not talking alcohol (that'll be a no-no for a while).. so thanks to Pinterest (I've got a whole board for After Surgery), I found what I will be having instead of cake..

I'm thinking it will be a mini version of something like this.. because I prolly won't be drinking that much for a long time..  I need to start working on the fact that my surgery date is not the "starting point" of my weight loss.. If I don't start working on getting some stamina now, and if I can't work out for two weeks after surgery, I'm gonna be at a disadvantage when I'm actually able to workout.. So if I can keep working out more and more, and I plan to join a gym again in September, I hopefully will have a good momentum going to keep my body burning fat well into the 2 weeks off..

And did I mention that supposedly I will GAIN around 10 lbs after surgery?!  NO WAY!!  I'm not looking forward to that.. but it also supposedly goes away (it being bloating and all that)..  and maybe with my metabolism getting faster, it'll hopefully help that weight go away faster.. fingers crossed..

I've Given Up..

Yeah, I'm sure most of you all have realized that I'm not here anymore.. I haven't blogged steadily in months.. And I haven't done anything productive in almost a year..

But it stops today.. It was supposed to stop yesterday but I used that day as a recoup kind of day.. Went to the grocery store, slept a lot, etc..

But today, and for the rest of August (for now), I plan to do at least 10 minutes of activity every day.. And I will be posting a pic of me doing this activity daily on here.. This way I can get back into blogging before my surgery..

I keep thinking 'When I get my surgery...' and I shouldn't be thinking like that.. Bc this surgery is just a tool, not a miracle.. And if I don't start working on the other tools I already have (that are just rusty), this surgery won't be any real help in the long run.. And that is why I'm doing the surgery... For the long haul..

Oh, wanna hear something totally depressing?! I weighed in at my dietician's appointment last week and weighed in at 283!! That disgusts me.. But what disgusts me even more is what I see in the mirror.. And the question I always ask is 'how is that really me?!'

Kings Island: Day 1

So as I said before, I am currently at Kings Island with my BFF, Amanda, and my cousin, Chrissy.. Thanks to it being a Sunday, the lines were AWESOME! Hardly any wait in the main park..

Now, today has been an eye opener.. The first ride that we tried to ride (me and my cousin), I wouldn't fit into the seat enough to put the lap guard down far enough.. I was shocked! In my head I still see myself at like 220.. I KNOW that I weigh in at almost 280, but in my mind, I'm not that fat..

Today was a struggle with the rides.. And while that was the only ride I literally had to get off of before it started, I struggled through a couple more before we went to the waterpark.. Which was a whole other issue: swimsuits! Eek!

I feel like a beached whale in a bathing suit right now.. No offense to anyone, but this is me I'm talking about.. I hate living in this fat suit I've put myself in!!

But I had fun, for the most part.. We ran out of steam, and things to do, so we came back to the hotel and went to eat.. Then went to Target til we could check in at 3.. Now, here we are... All lying on our respective beds, chilling bc we're exhausted..

Happy Sunday!!!

Magic Mike, Heat, and Sweat..

Okay, let me first start with this:

HI!

I'm sorry I've been away for a long time, but it's been a weird couple of months.. But it seems like it's been longer than 1.5 months since I last blogged..

I plan to write another entry (hopefully tomorrow or Saturday) about all my VS surgery appointments.. But right now, life is kinda exciting for me, outside of my impending surgery..

Thanks to a local Louisvile radio station (and my stalker-like actions with them.. Hehe) I aw able to win 2 tickets to their Wednesday night premier of Magic Mike.. Don't know what that is?! Where have you been?! Google it..

Thankfully it was at 7:30pm, not at midnight like I originally thought.. And THEY HAD STRIPPERS!! In a movie theater!! The girl next to me was celebrating her last day being 20-something, so she got a tank top..

Of course, I'm always wanting free shirts, so I asked what we have to do to get a black shirt.. Lmao.. Well, the proof is in the picture, right?!

Mean guy wouldn't let me touch him.. :( But I got my shirt.. Thankfully we were in the front row.. Too bad the movie wasn't in 3D though.. Hehehe

By the time we left (at 9:30 pm), thanks tiny social anxiety, I was pooped.. Not a lot of people get how much energy it takes to go out in strange places right now. I used to be so outgoing, and since gaining all this weight I've become so introverted.. It's sad, to me.. It now takes me DAYS to 'bounce back'.. I'm seriously hoping that changes once I start losing weight..

And now, we have the hottest week in Indiana EVER! I'm not made for this kind of heat.. Pretty sure all my chubby peeps are feeling the same way.. HEAT IS BAD! I can't wear makeup, my hair frizzed out no matter how I fix it, and all my work stuff is HOT AS HELL when I go to use it.. Ugh!

Oh yeah, did I mention I'm going to Kings Island on Sunday with my BFF an my cousin?! Not too happy about going ANYWHERE in a bathing suit, but it should be fun.. We're going for 2 days (thanks to $25 tickets from work).. I haven't been there since high school.. The Rugrats characters were still there when I went last.. Lol

One last thing.... I'm almost up to 280 lbs.. I was shocked when I saw that.. But more on that later..

How's YOUR week going?

Hello?! Is Anyone There??

I feel like I've lost all my followers.. While yes, I still have them, I miss all the comments I used to get.. but then again, I'm only talking now.. no weigh ins, no NSV's..

BUT........ I really want some feedback this time, so I'm hoping that more people look at (and comment on) this entry..

My life is boring!! 

Yep, snooze fest at my house.. :(   I am a creative person.. until it's time to come up with ideas of what to do in my spare time.. I need to get out of my comfort zone.. so here's where YOU come in..

What is a hobby that you like to do??  What do you try to do every now and then to keep life interesting?? 

I'm begging you........ HELP!!