I Hate Bills..

Especially medical bills.. But anyone who likes them is crazy, I guess..

I got a summons for tomorrow back in February for a little over $400 in past medical bills.. and all I could say to myself is "REALLY?!"  I have tried to get this collection agency to send me a bill to make payments over the past two years..  and thanks to my paper hoarding, I have proof that I haven't received a bill from them since 2008..

My game plan?  To go into that court and offer to do payroll deductions for the PRINCIPLE amount.  I will fight to the death to not have to pay for the filing fee or the interest, since I have tried to contact and get paper bills from them for the past few years.  We'll see I guess if it works..  fingers crossed that it does, bc seriously that's another $200 added to the amount..

That is $200 that could be going towards my next project.. which is for another blog entry.. ;) 

Insomnia..

I'm sitting here, in my grandmother's bed (bc it's super soft and I love sleeping here when she's out of town), and I can't sleep..  I hate when this happens, bc it's usually due to a headache or pain of some sort..

** Guys, this is when you should prolly go back to your other websites.. lol **

Now that's out of the way.. 

Tonight, it's a little of everything.. thanks to TOM..  Yay me *insert sarcasm*

What makes it worse is that I've recently had an IUD implanted.. Yep, almost a month ago, I got Mirena put in and I've been cramping ever since.. ugh!  I knew it would possibly be a complication, but I thought it would be worth it in the end, bc it would regulate everything.. and I do have to admit that it has lessened my "flow" so I can tell..  

The one thing that scares me is that it can come out.. and I've heard several people say that it has happened to them..  I've got my follow up appointment to make sure it's where it's supposed to be on Monday, so hopefully my OB/GYN will be able to put my mind at ease..

Anyone else have Mirena?  or another kind of IUD?

I'm Alice..

and life right now is my rabbit hole..

Honestly, I'm so confused right now..  I couldn't tell you what made it apparent to me, but it just hit me in the face tonight.. I hate that I've essentially gave up on anything to do with finding myself..

My professional life is good.. I'm taking on more responsibilities at my job, and getting more hours.. but my professional life isn't what I'm worried about.. It's the rest of it..

I was asking myself earlier what I would do if I had a week off work.. ha!  I'd stay at home and sleep, that was my first answer.. and that is so sad to me..  I wouldn't even begin to know what I'd want to do or where I'd want to go if I had that kind of time off.. but I bet I'd be hoping that my paycheck wouldn't suffer..

Writing this is making me sadder, but it's something I need to acknowledge.. especially since I seem to be able to bury stuff so well.. which is another reason I've not been to the gym or been blogging.. I'm not even going to say how much I think I weigh.. that'd be disgusting..

How did I let this happen??  I am so stuck..

It's Over Folks!

My Zipfizz giveaway is over.. sorry about the delay, but with my computer on the fritz I can't get to the other one in the house too often (if at all) when I'm home..  So without further ado, the two winners of my giveaway are:

Whitney @ The MFA Chronicles

and

Susette @ You'll Always Have My Heart

Please send me your addresses to fabchallenge gmail com.. I will then forward your addresses to the Zipfizz representative that will then send out your winnings.. :)  Thanks to all that entered, and I look forward to doing more throughout the year.. 

That's it for now.. On Tuesday, I'm going to try to post my "starting pics"..  eek!

Weird Things..

Some weird things are going on in my head.. lol.. honestly, I love it, bc most of them make me giggle.. :)

One of the two main reasons (other than health reasons) I need to make this my year to lose this weight is bc my drivers license expires this year.. NO MORE FAT PICTURES!!

The other reason is because my insurance gives me a discount every year i meet my 'wellness goals' and one is to lose 10% of my body weight.. the discount adds up to over $500 a year!  That's a big deal!  

Oh, and just in case you've just tuned in.. I'm doing a giveaway.. you should enter, bc who doesn't love free stuff, right?!

Well, i'm finally sleepy.. catch y'all on twitter.. :)

Things I Expect

I am terrified about tomorrow's Weight Watchers meeting.. Honestly, I expect a lot of stuff tomorrow..

I expect to feel disgusted with myself..
I expect to see the scale say 260-something..
I expect this to be the LAST time I ever see that number again..
I expect to take this (and my health) seriously..
I expect to prolly cry when I get done weighing in (or at least wanting to)..

and, I expect to see lots of encouraging blogs to make this journey easier.. just knowing there are other people in the same boat as me will make it that much better for me.. :)

Btw, have you entered my giveaway from Zipfizz yet?? Well, you should.. it's really quite easy.. :)

2012 Resolutions..

My New Years Resolutions are pretty simple..  This way I don't end up screwing them up too much.. lol

1. Cross as many things off my 28 at 28 as I can

2. Finally find my fabulosity

3. Actively go to the gym

4. Get as close to 165 lbs as possible

5. Pay off as many outstanding bills as possible

A lot of my resolutions are part of my 28 at 28 page.. So be sure to check it out, and I'll be sure to update ya (prolly on a monthly basis).. :)

Are you making resolutions?? Are you making some that AREN'T weight loss related?