Let's Go Back a Little..

Not a long time ago.. Just like a month ago.. To September 28th.. I know I mentioned it in my previous post, but I also know that to some people, pictures are better than words..  Weirdly enough, that day changed my world.. Mostly for the better, in the long run.. 

The part of the highway I was on is a popular crash spot.. But I was actually running a little late to get to my second job when someone (a 19 year old girl) pulled out in front of me, and I t-boned her car.. And people are right when they say it goes like slow motion.. I can remember a lot about it, and the fact that I was tall (and fat) prolly saved me a lot of issues.. The airbag didn't hit my face, it hit my chest.. So no broken facial bones, only a bruised sternum.. and the seatbelt didn't do anything to my spleen, just some nasty seatbelt bruising..

It was definitely a day of firsts for me.. 1st injury car accident, 1st ambulance ride (with thankfully really fun EMT's), 1st time being on a backboard (those things are annoying).. and surprisingly enough, I didn't have a panic attack.. YAY!

My mom told me my car was pretty mangled in the front but I had no idea what it looked like til the next day.. My poor car.. It would have been all mine in February.. That's what made me the maddest about this whole car wreck.. I'm glad I was okay, but my car was basically done for..

Thankfully, because it was her fault I didn't have to do much.. Their insurance is pretty awesome about getting me a rental car, because I drive for a living.. and while one of my jobs threatened my job (a dumb misunderstanding), I only missed out on two nights of work..  I'm grateful that it wasn't worse..

I've never had a rental car before, seeing as I've never needed one..  so when I got this rental car, I was shocked at what it looked like.. You see, I've never driven a brand new vehicle before.. not for more than a test drive that is.. lol.. and boy was this one nice to drive..

I called it a trash can car, bc it was so boxy.. lol.. but it had all the bells and whistles.. And of course, I was afraid to drive it too much because it was so new (and they charge you for any dings or dents)..  But it was fun for the 3 days I had it..  I was anxious to get a new vehicle, especially since they worked so fast at getting me money for my totalled car..

I looked at a bunch of cars, but I really loved my 2006 Kia Spectra, so I found one that was almost like it but better..  This is my new car, a 2009 Kia Spectra..  besides the spoiler, the color, the year and the rain gaurds, there isn't much difference..  Oh, and my lowered car payment.. Which is nice..

Oh, one big difference is that it has remote entry, 3 sets of keys and REMOTE START!!  I didn't originally know it came with that.. Three days after I got the car, they called me saying they had the third set of keys and they thought it also had remote start on it.. I drove down and it took three of us to figure out how to use it.. lol..  This will definitely come in handy in the coming months.. :)


But thanks to the generous amount of money they gave me for my old Kia, I was able to put a hefty down payment on the new car and have extra money to pay some bills that, before my accident, I was worried how I was going to pay on time.. Also before my accident, I was honestly worried about my car's increasing mileage (when it got totalled it was nearing 155,000 miles).. So, in retrospect, I think this car accident was a blessing in disguise..

Yes, I will be hurting for a bit.. No, it's not something I would ever ask to have happen to me.. But it did happen and it is helping me in the long run.  I have been able to buy stuff without having to worry if I'll be able to afford other things.. I have been able to get a laptop so I can finally do homework (and blog or play on FB) while at work (which is where I am now)..

Thankfully, since my accident, everything seems to be going in my favor.. And while a small part of me is wondering when the bad is coming (bc that's how it usually works), I'm trying to squash it.. Because everyone deserves happiness right?!  :)

Well, good night peeps!  Talk at ya soon!

Anticipation..

Holy hell!  I knew it had been a while since I'd blogged, but I didn't think it had been over 2 months!!  Sorry, people..

I'm so excited to say that my Vertical Sleeve gastrectomy is in 10 DAYS!!  And then I turn 29 in 17 days!!  Yep, my surgery is exactly one week before my 29th birthday.. :)  I planned it like that on purpose.. Can't be in the hospital ON my birthday.. That'd be stupid.. lol

I've got my witches hat to wear for Halloween.. since I will be in the hospital walking around.. and hopefully my niece and nephews will come see me before they go trick or treating bc my niece is going to be Julia Ghoulia from Monster High and I can't wait to see her.. I can't wait to see the boys either.. lol

I wish I had gotten my craft room up and organized so I could make my own hospital gown, but I guess I'll live wearing those ugly green hospital gowns.. :( 

Let's recap for a second about the past two months:

** My parents have been out of the house for a little over a month..  It's been weird, but wonderful!

** On the 29th of September, I was involved in a head on collision.. well, it was head on for me.. Someone pulled out in front of me and I t-boned them.. thankfully I wasn't going too fast (like 30 mph) but it did deploy the airbag and sprain my sternum..  My car was totalled and I got a better version of my previous car.. lol.. bc I loved it so much!  You can check it out on FB.. or click here..

** My last dietary appointment was the 1st of the month.. and somehow I'd lost almost all the weight I'd gained in the second month.. So happy bc my dietician was threatening to halt my surgery date because of it..

** I was able to get an actual car loan!!  Seriously, I haven't been able to get a credit card because my credit sucks that bad.. So when they told me I got a car loan (albeit with a high percentage rate), I was ecstatic.. :)


I think that's it, for now.. I'm at work, and about to leave..  TTFN!

Exhausted..

Today has been an emotionally exhausting day.. Why?! Bc my brother, sister-in-law and niece were packing up their home and getting ready to leave at 1am tonight..

I had not realized it was already the 13th.. I got word that my clients for today had declined baths, I was happy to be off bc it meant that I got to go see my niece before they were leaving.. And now I'm glad I did..

I spent about 4 hours over there helping my SIL and brother pack and clean as much as I could.. And then around 2:30, I had to leave to get ready for work.. BRING ON THE TEARS!!

I only cried a bit.. Bc it will hit me in a couple days.. That's how I am, when anything bad happens, I always have an emotional delay of sorts.. So I'll prolly have a break down on Wednesday.. Lol

But I am feeling exhausted.. I hate to see them go, even if I get a house to myself in return.. I wish they could stay here in Indiana.. Instead, I guess I'll be taking a bunch of trips to Virginia.. :)

My mom got to watch my niece for a while.. Here are some of their 'self portraits'..

Everyone's Moving On..

Well, this is prolly a record for me anymore.. twice in two days?!  Wow!!  lol.. but I've got a lot going on, and I wanna talk about it..

Over the past couple months, my family has been coming to terms with something HUGE.. On June 1st, my brother officially made it through Drill Sergeant school.. I am so proud of him, but seeing as there aren't many Army bases in Indiana, he had to make the decision on where to move.. His choices were some town in Arkansas or Arlington, Virginia.. We have history (and two grandfather's buried) in Arlington, so he chose Virginia..

He has to report to base on the 15th of this month.. and it's been a figment of our imagination until this past week.. They are packing up their lives, their memories, our Layla, and moving to Arlington.. :(  My mom is getting sadder and sadder, thinking of not having Layla 2 miles down the road.. We are all happy for them.. but it will be weird not having them around..

To make it even weirder, my parents are moving into my brother and SIL's house..  This makes me very excited (as long as I don't think about the fact that my brother, SIL and Layla are leaving for this to happen), because I AM STAYING IN OUR HOUSE!!  I will have a whole house to myself, hopefully by the time my surgery is happening.. lol

They are gonna take their time moving, which is understandable.. but I can't help wanting them to just GTFO.. ;)  I've been living with them for almost 5 years.. It'll be weird being on my own again, but I'm looking forward to it..  I'm looking forward to having a craft room (yes, I already have the rooms planned out), and to walking around partially dressed without worrying about flashing my dad (EWWW!)..

So things are getting kinda crazy around here.. and they aren't looking like their gonna stop anytime soon..

It's Been Scheduled!!

Well, today has been an eventful day.. Why?!

Because I had my Pre-Op appointment with my surgeon, Dr. Cooper..  He's kinda funny, and he's got this mustache that goes on FOREVER!  But after going over my health history and making sure I was certain I wanted a Vertical Sleeve, he felt my belly a little and then we went to the front to talk about appointment times..

Now, while my appointment is based upon the assumption that it will take less than 4 weeks to get my insurance to approve it, I've been told that my insurance takes less than 2 weeks to usually get it approved.. Less if you bug them (which we all know I will)..  So, as of right now, my last appointment before surgery is October 1st, and then they'll put the paperwork into my insurance company.. and my surgery is scheduled for October 31st!!

Yep, I will be having surgery on Halloween!  My aunt asked me if I plan on dressing up.. lol.. maybe I'll bring wings to wear with my custom-made hospital gown.. Oh, yeah.. I plan to start making my own hospital gown bc those ones in the hospital are freaking UGLY!!  But thankfully I'll only (supposedly) be in the hospital the day of surgery and the next day.. :)

Oh, and did I mention that my surgery is exactly a week before my 29th birthday?!  Yep, so I will be on a strictly liquid diet for my birthday.. and I'm not talking alcohol (that'll be a no-no for a while).. so thanks to Pinterest (I've got a whole board for After Surgery), I found what I will be having instead of cake..

I'm thinking it will be a mini version of something like this.. because I prolly won't be drinking that much for a long time..  I need to start working on the fact that my surgery date is not the "starting point" of my weight loss.. If I don't start working on getting some stamina now, and if I can't work out for two weeks after surgery, I'm gonna be at a disadvantage when I'm actually able to workout.. So if I can keep working out more and more, and I plan to join a gym again in September, I hopefully will have a good momentum going to keep my body burning fat well into the 2 weeks off..

And did I mention that supposedly I will GAIN around 10 lbs after surgery?!  NO WAY!!  I'm not looking forward to that.. but it also supposedly goes away (it being bloating and all that)..  and maybe with my metabolism getting faster, it'll hopefully help that weight go away faster.. fingers crossed..

I've Given Up..

Yeah, I'm sure most of you all have realized that I'm not here anymore.. I haven't blogged steadily in months.. And I haven't done anything productive in almost a year..

But it stops today.. It was supposed to stop yesterday but I used that day as a recoup kind of day.. Went to the grocery store, slept a lot, etc..

But today, and for the rest of August (for now), I plan to do at least 10 minutes of activity every day.. And I will be posting a pic of me doing this activity daily on here.. This way I can get back into blogging before my surgery..

I keep thinking 'When I get my surgery...' and I shouldn't be thinking like that.. Bc this surgery is just a tool, not a miracle.. And if I don't start working on the other tools I already have (that are just rusty), this surgery won't be any real help in the long run.. And that is why I'm doing the surgery... For the long haul..

Oh, wanna hear something totally depressing?! I weighed in at my dietician's appointment last week and weighed in at 283!! That disgusts me.. But what disgusts me even more is what I see in the mirror.. And the question I always ask is 'how is that really me?!'

Kings Island: Day 1

So as I said before, I am currently at Kings Island with my BFF, Amanda, and my cousin, Chrissy.. Thanks to it being a Sunday, the lines were AWESOME! Hardly any wait in the main park..

Now, today has been an eye opener.. The first ride that we tried to ride (me and my cousin), I wouldn't fit into the seat enough to put the lap guard down far enough.. I was shocked! In my head I still see myself at like 220.. I KNOW that I weigh in at almost 280, but in my mind, I'm not that fat..

Today was a struggle with the rides.. And while that was the only ride I literally had to get off of before it started, I struggled through a couple more before we went to the waterpark.. Which was a whole other issue: swimsuits! Eek!

I feel like a beached whale in a bathing suit right now.. No offense to anyone, but this is me I'm talking about.. I hate living in this fat suit I've put myself in!!

But I had fun, for the most part.. We ran out of steam, and things to do, so we came back to the hotel and went to eat.. Then went to Target til we could check in at 3.. Now, here we are... All lying on our respective beds, chilling bc we're exhausted..

Happy Sunday!!!