My Personal 30 Day Challenge

Alright, so I'm putting myself into my own personal challenge.. I will do it for 30 days and then reevaluate at the end to see if I want to continue or not..

I plan to do the following every day for the next 30 days:

** My Shake Weight exercises

** crunches (25 minimum, hoping to work this number up to 100 eventually)

** reverse crunches (again, 25 minimum, hoping to work up to 100)

** do at least 30 minutes of SOME SORT of cardio

I'm still trying to figure out what reward I should get for completing that, but I figure I'll come up with something once I get halfway through.. :)

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So, I got some Yogi tea samples in the mail some time last week.. and I got the Skin Detox and Green Tea Blueberry.. I just tried the blueberry one, it's supposed to help curb hunger cravings, and I LOVE IT!!  The samples came with a $1/2 coupon, so I'm thinking I'm going to start carrying these around with me to drink after lunch.. maybe it'll help me snack less in between lunch and dinner.. Here's hoping.. lol

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Well, my daily weigh in wasn't surprising to me.. Yesterday was a bad day, and thanks to lack of sleep, I succumbed to pizza.. and LOTS of it.. :(   I am also in so much pain thanks to my TOM being around the corner, so I hope it's not all permanent gain..

Todays weight: 244.6 lbs

Daily Weigh In's..

Well, I'm starting to do daily weigh in's.. this way when I see I've gained SOMETHING, I can look back, notice that I ate poorly or just horribly and fix it.. Today it was relief on my part..

Today's weigh in: 240.6 lbs

So I lost 1.8 lbs since yesterday.. which tells me that I ate too much the few days before yesterday.. ugh!  Well, I'm off to go have fun with my BFF.. :)

Weigh In..

So, it's judgment day.. :(  I just weighed in, and I'm close to tears.. I knew to expect another gain, but a part of me hoped I'd maintain.. I was sorely disappointed..

Weight on 7/8/11: 241.2 lbs

Gain of: 3.0 lbs

I was looking at my tracker, and I'm heavier NOW than I was in August of last year!!  NOT COOL!!  Sadly, I know what the issue is.. I don't work out, and I eat like crap!  I miss my gym membership, and bc of money issues that won't be fixed for a while.. and I'm working on the eating part as I write this.. Weirdly enough, I feel skinnier, as I've been doing ab and arm workouts over the past few days..

Last night I got in 25 minutes of Just Dance in and while I ate kinda a lot of food, it was taco salad (without chips!), so I figured I'd eat it since I was making it healthy..  I'm going grocery shopping later, so hopefully I'll get lots of fruits bc I've missed them.. :)

Today Will Be Bad..

Food-wise, it will be pretty bad.. I need to go grocery shopping for some more fruits and veggies, some lunch meat, and soups! I can't wait to have soup again! Is that sad?  ;)

I say it's going to be bad bc tonight is our True Blood night.. this is where me, my mom, and my grandma get together (she cooks) and watch two to three episodes of True Blood.. We get to spend time together, eat, talk, and watch Eric Northam.. yummy!  lol.. and I requested my grandma's homemade tirimisu for tonight.. OMG! It's to die for.. and with work and this, I am not gonna be able to workout until around 11 tonight.. but i'm still hoping to get my Just Dance game out and dust its off tonight.. :)

Oh, did I mention lunch was pizza and my lettuce mix is nasty?!  :(  no salad for me with my slices.. add that to my list.. ugh!

It's Complicated..

<p>well, isn't everything anymore??&nbsp; nothing is ever simple.. and losing weight isn't simple either.. it takes a lot of wrongs to find a right.. and i'm not sure what's going on with my body right now, but i'm thinking I need to try something other than what I'm doing..</p>
<p>I feel so bloated.. Something is up, but I can't figure out exactly what it is.. I've got some ideas, but until I can say that it ISN'T this or that, i'm keeping the reasons to myself.. lol..</p>
<p>I know what I do need out of a diet: I need to be able to track (whatever) on my phone.. so i'm thinking of going back to counting calories.. I looked on Livingstrong.com and it states that to lose 2 lbs a week I'd need no more than 1600 calories a day.. I think it's doable.. I'll prolly still try to stick with low carb breads, but that's it.. lol

I'm not looking forward to weighing in on Friday, but i'll take it and run in the right direction.. :)

Perceptions..

I have been debating on writing about this for a while.. and now, it got to me a few days ago, so here I am to talk about it.. :)

So, we all have different perceptions of the world.. it makes us interesting, the way we see things differently than others.. and perception is a big issue with weight loss, I think.. some people are lucky to have an accurate perception of themselves.. they see that they are bigger/skinnier than they 'should' be or they think they are beautiful the way they are..

I wish I had that ability to love myself.. and no, i'm not looking for the 'your beautiful' comments.. but I don't love my outward self fat.. is that a bad thing??  I think my personality is better (more prominent) whether i'm big or skinnier, but I think I look DAMN GOOD when i'm smaller..

I say this a lot, and I wonder if people understand what I mean.. 'there are pretty fat people, and there are people who just don't look good fat'.. my mom is one of those ladies who look good bigger.. I AM NOT! I need definition in my face to feel pretty, I need to see I have cheekbones (which disappear when I gain weight)..

My mom, bless her heart, doesn't see why I feel this way.. which is ok, but i'm getting sick of explaining why I do feel this way.. lol.. I don't WANT to be 'happy' with myself being fat.. is that so hard to imagine?!

Wow, I think this entry kinda went off track.. lol 

Weigh In

** OOPS, SO I WAS POSTING THIS ON MY PHONE AND I GUESS I HIT THE WRONG BUTTON.. SO HERE'S MY WEIGH IN FROM FRIDAY.. **

So it's Friday.. and while I just weighed in on Monday, I don't like weighing in on Mondays (bc usually I'll eat my "normal meal" over the weekend)..  So I'm weighing in today and will continue to weigh in on Fridays weekly..

I weighed in on Thursday night, and was seriously shocked.. I knew I'd eaten a little more carbs than I anticipated (not including the bran and yogurts daily), but I wasn't expecting to see how much I'd gained.. So I was bracing myself for today's weigh in..  It wasn't too horrible.. but a gain is bad, no if's, and's, or but's about it..

Today's weigh in:  238.2 lbs

+2.4 lbs

I'm hoping this is just bc I have been eating the yogurt and oatmeal/bran muffins.. which I will now take out of my diet.. I eat enough fiber to balance the meat I'm eating, so I'm not really worried about that part of it.. So, I will accept the weight gain this week and make sure I see that gone next week.. Mark my word!  I WILL SEE 235.0 OR BELOW next Friday!!